The Next Cliffhanger Installment

Since EJ was scheduled to begin work on March 9th, which is next Monday, we working really hard on the house this weekend. I painted the ceiling and stained some doors, while EJ working on hanging more drywall. Saturday we worked until about midnight and Sunday we worked until 9 or 10 p.m.

The HR guy from the new company had told EJ that he didn’t need an appointment, but when he showed up for the testing last Friday, he was told that while he didn’t need an appointment for the drug testing, he did need one for the physical. So although both test and physical are usually done at the same visit, EJ had to do them separately, which meant that we had to make an extra trip (an hour drive) and wait several days to find out all the results.

I had expected some difficulty with the drug testing because of the meds EJ takes, but he passed with flying colors. Therefore, I was very hopeful about EJ’s physical this morning. However, the doctor who did the testing wrote on the report that will be given to the new company that EJ has a restriction of not lifting more than 30 lbs. This restriction could very well be enough to prevent the company from hiring EJ. The frustrating thing is that this doctor could have barred EJ from a job that is much, much easier physically than EJ’s current job.

Furthermore, EJ has already given his notice to his current company. which means we potentially could have no income, no insurance, no medical care for JJ, nothing.

I hate to sound like “poor me, life sucks” because I think everyone has difficulties–many worse than mine. However, this sort of thing has happened to us over and over through the years. Disasters constantly hit us and whenever we try to make positive changes–even small ones–they fall apart. Stuff like this is why I am cautious about believing everything will work out and dreams will come true.

I’m sort of mad at God today and not talking to Him. Or, rather, I am yelling at Him, when I speak to Him at all, that all these problems didn’t have to happen. He could have easily helped us–today and throughout the years.

A few days ago, a FB friend posted a praise that God had found her a parking space in a full parking lot. I think, He finds parking spaces but He won’t help us with major things? I mean, why not help those who REALLY need help?

I’m losing hope and I am in a rather negative mood.

I have no idea what will happen next. I’d sigh, “What next?” but I really don’t want to know.

I expect homelessness and starvation.

I hate cliffhangers.


6 Comments on “The Next Cliffhanger Installment

  1. At times like this I remind myself of the old saying, “It will all be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, then it’s not the end.” Thinking of you guys!


  2. I’m thinking of the old Hee Haw song:

    Gloom, despair, and agony on me
    Deep, dark depression, excessive misery
    If it weren’t for bad luck, I’d have no luck at all
    Gloom, despair, and agony on me


  3. I think that the same God who cares about parking spots is the same God who cares about your situation, cliffhanger and all.

    I’ve been through enough job changes in my married life to be constantly afraid of impending job changes, even when there’s no need to. I can tell you that I had a battle within with the last one…. and I finally realized I could face my fear in the situation with God, or without Him. In my opinion it’s good that you’re “yelling” at Him. He already knows you’re mad at Him, so don’t be afraid to voice your thoughts to Him.

    I hate the unknown in waiting. I’ll be praying for you throughout today that God will see fit to have you hear something today. If not today, then tomorrow. If not tomorrow, then the next day. And that while you’re waiting that you will have the peace that passes all understanding… Philippians 4:4-7. If music soothes your soul, then check out You tube for the song, “While I’m waiting” by John Waller.

    May you also find comfort in Psalm 46.

    Hugs to all of you!


  4. It is much to deal with and I do hope that the new company just will be hiring EJ. It is a pity that he already gave notice in his current job because if he didn’t you had something to fall back on. But maybe it is in your country the only way to go from one job to another I don’t know that of course. I just pray for you all. ❤ ❤


  5. Oh, I am praying for you, and not just for the job and such, but for a feeling that God is there with you. It is in times like this that God carries you, not just stands by you.


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